To my children... Jordan, and Briana

I don't know who I am,
but who I want to be;
I don't recognize the face,
while looking in the mirror at me...

Am I the person I once was,
am I the reason, not the cause;
who am I ?
where do I go,
how do I learn;
please let it show...

To take away the pain,
to wash it all away;
there's nothing I can do,
and nothing left to say...

I'd give my very life,
to know you'd have peace within;
I'd end it all for me,
just for you it would finally begin...

I want to see you happy,
I want to see you shine;
I want much more for the both of you,
than I ever wanted for mine...

I never meant to hurt you,
I only wish you could see;
that all ever wanted,
was to be with you happy, and free...
I only wish

I see, and he's set me free...

I sit alone,
and wonder why;
should I give up,
or should I try...

I find myself in,
in your embrace;
I search around,
to see your face...

I cannot see,
yet this I know;
that through my heart,
your love will show...

I can't take back,
my foolish ways;
I can't erase,
my broken days...

For I know know now,
it's was meant to be;
because I found you,
and now I see...

For you have set me free...

The pain I hide

This pain I carry
deep within
how did it start
when will it end

Dreary days
passing by
I ask myself
and wonder why

Can you tell me
if it's real
is this pain
that I feel

Take it from me
let it go
peace and love
will finally show

Life has a pace

Eyes wide shut
but open to see
allow your heart
to set you free

Fallen so deep
catching me fast
the future has come
forgetting the past

Days you've lost
will begin to heal
the touch of life
you can feel

Own will

Time sitting still
passing you by
no need to worry
nor wonder why

Let it go
and you will see
in this life
what you can be

Free your mind
let it go
then your love
will begin to show

Loving a man

Loving a man
To love a man,
as I love you,
the way I think,
the things I do..

Leaving me helpless,
sometimes I feel lost,
this love you can't pay,
no matter the cost...

Sitting up late,
thinking all night,
you take away fear,
you take away fright...

So how to explain,
a love so true,
through the life I lead,
I'll show it to you...

Our 1st Kiss

Our 1st Kiss

I'd sit up thinking,
how it would be;
standing there,
as your kissing me...

My knees went weak,
I trembled inside;
it was such a feeling,
I couldn't hide...

I never thought,
I'd be kissing you here;
but messing up,
was just a fear...

When you touch me,
my mind goes blank;
my thought's erase,
my heart just sank...

The words you speak,
I pray are true;
forever I want,
to be kissing you...