To my children... Jordan, and Briana

I don't know who I am,
but who I want to be;
I don't recognize the face,
while looking in the mirror at me...

Am I the person I once was,
am I the reason, not the cause;
who am I ?
where do I go,
how do I learn;
please let it show...

To take away the pain,
to wash it all away;
there's nothing I can do,
and nothing left to say...

I'd give my very life,
to know you'd have peace within;
I'd end it all for me,
just for you it would finally begin...

I want to see you happy,
I want to see you shine;
I want much more for the both of you,
than I ever wanted for mine...

I never meant to hurt you,
I only wish you could see;
that all ever wanted,
was to be with you happy, and free...
I only wish